About Sy908
Hi there, I am 20 years old and I need help. I just married almost 3 weeks ago and don't have enough money to get out of my parent's house. Now I love my parents but we can't live with them at all. We need help. For as long as I can remember my parents have always thought of themselves, their firstborn daughter (my older sister) & their youngest son (my little brother). I was a good kid, I stayed in school, did my homework, went to church faithfully and just never was in their hair. My father is emotionally abusive, he calls me fat, if I don't know how to do something instead of taking the time to teach me he yells because I don't know how to do it...he treats my mother the same way. My mother doesn't really want anything to do with me, I have tried countless times in the past to develop a meanigful relationship with her but she never seemed interested so I tried to please her any way I could. I am a people-pleaser, I have absolutely no confidence in myself or my abilities. My sister is anti-social, depressed and cuts herself, she expects me to be her whole world and not worry about myself...on July 4th she tried to slit her wrists because I couldn't see fireworks with her. My brother is 15 and relates more to 8-9 year olds because my mother still treats him like her little baby. My husband is really the only person I have ever felt love me, he makes me feel beautiful & always exclaims how lucky he is to have married me. Right now he's out of work, I work a 42 hour week and make enough to pay rent, bills and that's it. I can barely put food in our mouths, so we live with my parents...they don't know that we've married yet, if they find out they will kick us out just because we're married. If I suggest to pay them rent until we can save for our own place they will complain and make our lives hard. If I had enough money to move out right now and buy a bed, I would be able to put food in our mouths. We have an apartment on hold for us, we don't have anything but our clothes...we haven't been able to sleep in a bed together since we married and I can't stand it. I want to be able to sleep next to my husband, I don't want to feel like I have to do everything for my parents, I want to focus on the life I'm trying to build with my husband. Honestly, I don't care that we don't have anything, if we could just move out I'd be happier. Please if anyone out there reads this and wants to help, message me here. We can't live there anymore.
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